I have a friend, a female friend of the same age as me. She has a boyfriend. of a different religion. Long distant relationship. As a matter of fact, the same kind of relationship as mine, except that hers is about a year longer. 2 years together, never quarrelled, never had any big problems. He writes to her. At least one letter a week. They never used much technology to communicate apart from skype. She sends about 2 text messages or less, each day. But he never replies. Not that he was busy or ignoring her, but its because of no phone credits to send an overseas text. They truly loved each other, anyone can see it. They know everything about each other. Not much insecurities because she know the he love her, and she feels the exact same way. But there, recently, for the first time ever in their perfect relationship, a problem occurred that shook the entire love boat so hard that it could capsize anytime.

Looking at her story, and mine, I feel jealous, actually. I never had much security left after that relationship. Couldn't trust people enough. I always feel as though things can end with the snap of my fingers. In every relationship, there'll always be one of them acting like a single person, having his/her options open for others. And there'll be the other, being so giving, so devoted to the one they love so much. It's hard to find, a couple, both knowing they feel the same way about each other, and not afraid to lose the other because they know that their love won't leave. It seems like trust is strong, but to me, I feel like there's something more than trust between them. It's like they know each other so well that 'breaking up' will never be in their partner's mind. I for sure, don't know what's going through Syahmi's mind at all times. I feel like this relationship will end. Decisions are hard to make, I know what kind of person he will be if we ever go our separate ways. He'll be back to smoking, not studying, not wanting to live his life anymore. He's different from others, but it's truly hard to be able to decide whether or not you might want to convert to spend the rest of your life with someone you love.

Of course, people might just say that "If you really love someone, you'll have to make sacrifices" or maybe "If you love him/her so much, you will do it" but really, it's not just a simple decision like whether should I leave to go to Australia or to stay in Singapore and do the course that I never have any interest in. All I can ever say is that Love is not enough. I feel so comfortable with him although sometimes he becomes a tiny bit annoying. The best thing I like about this relationship is that it's like a roller coaster. Its fun when its fun.

I have a friend, a female friend of the same age as me. She has a boyfriend. of a different religion. Long distant relationship. As a matter of fact, the same kind of relationship as mine, except that hers is about a year longer. 2 years together, never quarrelled, never had any big problems. He writes to her. At least one letter a week. They never used much technology to communicate apart from skype. She sends about 2 text messages or less, each day. But he never replies. Not that he was busy or ignoring her, but its because of no phone credits to send an overseas text. They truly loved each other, anyone can see it. They know everything about each other. Not much insecurities because she know the he love her, and she feels the exact same way. But there, recently, for the first time ever in their perfect relationship, a problem occurred that shook the entire love boat so hard that it could capsize anytime.

Looking at her story, and mine, I feel jealous, actually. I never had much security left after that relationship. Couldn't trust people enough. I always feel as though things can end with the snap of my fingers. In every relationship, there'll always be one of them acting like a single person, having his/her options open for others. And there'll be the other, being so giving, so devoted to the one they love so much. It's hard to find, a couple, both knowing they feel the same way about each other, and not afraid to lose the other because they know that their love won't leave. It seems like trust is strong, but to me, I feel like there's something more than trust between them. It's like they know each other so well that 'breaking up' will never be in their partner's mind. I for sure, don't know what's going through Syahmi's mind at all times. I feel like this relationship will end. Decisions are hard to make, I know what kind of person he will be if we ever go our separate ways. He'll be back to smoking, not studying, not wanting to live his life anymore. He's different from others, but it's truly hard to be able to decide whether or not you might want to convert to spend the rest of your life with someone you love.

Of course, people might just say that "If you really love someone, you'll have to make sacrifices" or maybe "If you love him/her so much, you will do it" but really, it's not just a simple decision like whether should I leave to go to Australia or to stay in Singapore and do the course that I never have any interest in. All I can ever say is that Love is not enough. I feel so comfortable with him although sometimes he becomes a tiny bit annoying. The best thing I like about this relationship is that it's like a roller coaster. Its fun when its fun.